I’m tired of breastfeeding.

Today is one of those days when I just want to give up.

Little people are always touching my body. Little mouths are constantly sucking, searching, and sucking some more in an attempt for nourishment, comfort, and peace.

I feel done.

I’ve been breastfeeding two little people for some time. I’m tired of Breastfeeding. My oldest is now 2. It seems like a long slow two years. I’m actively trying to encourage a gentle wean, but it’s hard. When it’s not him, it’s her. At 6.5 months she’s learning to crawl, cutting teeth, and just wants the love of her mom. My breasts feel otherwise.

Are you tired of breastfeeding?

I get it. It’s exhausting. It’s draining. But, if I stop breastfeeding the challenges of parenting still exist.

My children will stake wake at 4 am. My toddler will still have a meltdown when dinner takes too long. The baby will still need to be rocked back to sleep when something startles her. Parenting isn’t easy and ending my breastfeeding journey won’t make it any easier. I’m tired of Breastfeeding.

Take it one day at a time. 

Tomorrow is a new day with new and different challenges.

Today, I’m tired of Breastfeeding. But not tomorrow. 

So, tonight I set myself up with the goals because I know I don’t want my breastfeeding journey to end quite yet.

1. I will set myself mini goals. Because just one more day is easier to conquer than one more month, or one more year.
2. I will find time to rest. When sleep feels impossible, rest is the next best thing. 
3. I will find time to fuel my body. When we provide ourself with healthy nourishment, we make our bodies feel better. 
4. I will find time to have space. Not all me-time is done by yourself. Tomorrow we will go for a stroller walk. Nobody will touch me and children will be content in their seats. I’ll bribe them with food. It will all be good. We will walk, and I will enjoy my body without a tiny person clinging off of it. 

What will you do today, to make tomorrow happen?