It’s my birthday. I’m turning 27.

It’s been a tough year with a hard pregnancy and the never-ending battle with my mental health. Going from one kid to two kids is a challenge. Most days I don’t feel cut out for this parenting gig and I would just like to escape.

Here are 26 things on this past year.

1. I hate being lonely. Can another adult come live with me or visit for dinner? 
2. Giving up expectations is fucking hard. Serious. 
3. I don’t think I enjoy being a full-time mom.
4. Two kids doesn’t make it easier. What was I thinking?
5. My mental health is at an all-time low.
6. The word self-care is cringe-worthy.
7. Do I even have a hobby?
8. I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up.  Regretting this school thing. 
9. I would like to go back to work. But to pursue what? Customer Service? Can I just talk to other adults, please?
10. I also have no idea what I’m doing.
11. I miss travelling. And not just little trips to Prince Rupert and back, but like the constant exploration, and international travel. Can I be a nomad?
12. FOMO is for serious.
13. It’s okay to judge others, just don’t be a bitch. If you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all. You can’t force your morals onto other people. 
14. You can’t force people to be who you want them to be.
15. My toddler will never sleep.
16. Sleep is overrated. Coffee is King. 
17. I love baby gear.
18. Don’t trust bitches on the internet. 
19. Don’t read the comment section.
20. I’m terrified of raising a little girl. Seriously, what was I thinking? 
21. I’m grateful for Hike it Baby, for my Breastfeeding Support Group, and Mom’s Night Out. I might not have any super close best friends, but I do have an army of supportive women around me. I love meeting new moms every month and learning from them and hearing their journies 
22. Giving birth is a piece of cake, being pregnant, #neveragain
23. I have zero patience.
24. I still don’t like showering.
25. I still know nothing about beauty, fashion or hair. #mombunfordays
26. I’m the adult in the room.

Stay posted for 7 wishes I have for 27 tomorrow. <3